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Architect Steiner and God

Steiner had spent his life never thinking about God. His interest in metaphysical art and architecture was more like a phenomenon that could be categorized in the field of aesthetics. However, once, when young Steiner was working for a large firm, projecting goose farms, they pointed to an athletic young engineer, explaining that the man was religious. Steiner looked at the engineer and he was stunned. How could it be? He was religious and went to church. “How is it possible?” he asked himself.

Years passed. Steiner’s ego grew bigger and bigger. He started drinking heavily and taking strong tranquillisers. He was creatively very active, but there were new drug doses accompanying his every achievement. The man felt that he was coming to a crisis.

Steiner’s partner NiaKirdap Bar Raban once told him about an Indian camp held on a small island, followed by some mysterious nocturnal ceremony. At first Steiner hesitated whether to go or not. He finally packed his bag, took a pile of books with him, and one Sunday morning stepped on a fishing boat that started its ticking engine and took a course towards the island. Together with the Indians they built a tepee and set a campsite. When evening came, people became self-absorbed, like preparing for something. Steiner asked a nice young man whether it was going to be difficult there. “Depends on how good you are as a person,” the answer was. Noticing Steiner’s surprised face, the young man added that Steiner wouldn’t have to worry, as every participant had already been tested by the Indian priests.
The ceremony started at eleven. Six Indian roadmen and about twenty Steiner’s companions were sitting in a circle around the eagle-shaped fire. There were continuous drum rhythms, sacred songs and prayers, holy objects passed on clockwise, and finally the sacred substance Etoiep itself.

Vilen Künnapu. Birth House. Project, 2007.

During the first hours Steiner felt rather uncomfortable. Then suddenly something totally unexpected happened. He felt like taking off the ground and levitating into another reality. It was something that cannot be explained in human language. He saw something vast. He saw himself with his ego, his addictions and fears. Steiner was returning to reality. There were two strongly radiant eyes meeting him there, glowing like diamonds. The Indian priest Snerol welcomed him back like a spaceship. “Want some more Etoiep?” the man asked, smirking. Steiner had experienced something extraordinary. It was a completely different man stepping out of the tepee the next morning. His ego that had rested on his intellect had cracked and collapsed. In the next few days Steiner walked around on the island, as if doing something new and important. He realised he couldn’t take his sins and addictions to the Beyond. Steiner’s spiritual change had begun.
Three years passed. Steiner had quit drinking alcohol, but getting out of the cycle of pill-taking seemed impossible. Then the summer came and the architect spent a whole month without pills. It was intolerably hard. He almost didn’t sleep at all; his heart and head were hurting terribly. In one month he was totally exhausted, but there had been an enormous purification inside.

One afternoon he was walking over the castle hill and noticed something unexpected. The limestone castle had suddenly become alive. The spirit of the building was looking out from its few windows. Steiner had gone through another psychic experience. He started taking pills again. The eventual crisis arrived in winter. Suddenly Steiner was not feeling well. His colleagues helped him lie down on a sofa in his office and called an ambulance. Lying there on the sofa, Steiner felt that his soul was leaving him. “How can it be?” he wondered. “Is this it?” He did not know any prayers, but he still managed to find a suitable ritual for going. Steiner imagined he was the top of the cedar tree in his home yard. He identified with the top needles and branches of the tree. Something marvellous happened. Pains in his chest and head stopped and were replaced by very pleasant and blissful feeling. It was as if he was moving away from something and entered a wide tunnel full of light. Bliss and feeling of security became stronger. His buzzing body appeared to be somewhere further away from him.

Through the haze Steiner could hear the sirens of the ambulance and thought: I should turn back, or they will do it with electric shocks anyway. He returned to the frequency of real life and again, there was a sharp ache drumming in his temples and heart. Doctors made him an injection and took him away to a hospital. Steiner had gone through his own death and turned back to a new life. He had experienced that his soul was eternal, that the Beyond is an actual reality and death does not exist.

Steiner worked out the schedule for reducing the pill-consumption. In seven months the quantity of pills was supposed to be reduced to zero. One spring day Steiner felt that he was coming out from drug addiction. The same moment he gained a connection with the higher power. The connection with God was great, strong and stable. To Steiner, God was an energetic field he entered to get connected to the entirety. At first he stayed in that state for hours, then for days, until finally he was in it all the time. In August he took the last quarter of a pill. He had changed beyond all recognition. Increased weight, calm speaking tone and silent walk – everything spoke of a new person. The architect felt that from the moment he became connected to the power of God, nothing negative could harm him.

Once Steiner visited the Christian church and he liked it very much. Liturgical songs made him cry. In Egypt he met happy Muslims, who noticed his religiousness at once. “Have you read the Koran?” they asked. Ritual sweating ceremonies of Indians also moved Steiner to the bottom of his soul. Hindu light meditations, Buddhist Mandala cult, ancient grove ceremonies of Estonian witches – all that was the same thing. Steiner did not understand why different men of God were quarrelling. Indeed, there are different paths that lead to the peak of the mountain, but the peak itself is the same, he thought. Steiner discovered that his new circle of friends included former criminals, the so-called madmen, witches and priests, as well as an Academy Award-nominated film director and the former Miss Asia. Atheist poets, artists and philosophers had disappeared. Steiner did not need them any more.

The architect started visiting a prison and built a red circular sanctuary on its main square. They let him carry out different ceremonies there. Steiner saw that his religiousness inspired the prisoners too. That made his heart beat faster with joy. Together with his partner NiaKirdap Bar Raban they erected several sanctuaries in the counties of Astoria, as well as a spiral tower in the heart of the small town of Utrat. The architects realised that the energy of love they put into their projects radiated from the finished projects to the surrounding environment with thousand times bigger strength. Steiner also perceived that certain geometric forms and their combinations stood especially close to God.

Steiner’s spiritual growth was extremely intensive. He was observed by the spiritual mentor Alusru, otherwise he would have just lost his mind. One day the architect felt that the circle has become complete and he became a spiritual mentor himself. He announced:

  • God is everywhere and He is nowhere
  • God is inside you
  • God is in every molecule

Steiner perceived God as a higher field of love. A person who gains a connection with that field becomes omnipotent and immune. S/he does not do any harm and s/he cannot be harmed by anyone else too. The keys to that field with extremely high oscillation frequency are humbleness and selflessness. Love God, love your fellow-being, love nature, love yourself – thus thought Steiner.
One afternoon Steiner stopped his car in a petrol station in the middle of the woods. He noticed a CD “Restless Cinderella” on a counter. Listening to that blissful music, he suddenly realised that he had finally found God’s substitute on earth. From that moment on, that small disc was accompanying him on all his journeys. You only had to push the button to hear a soft girl's voice from the speakers, singing:


Steiner’s eyes filled with tears of gratitude. He looked at the rising sun and the setting moon. He looked at the silent sea and the clouds above and felt ultimately happy.


Vilen Künnapu

Vilen Künnapu is an architect and an artist. See also his previous texts in earlier issues of “Epifanio”.